My Life Without Me

So it's been quite a while since I last made an entry. Not much has changed. Things are still slowly improving, although the stress from a particular person is still there. I think he was reffered to as a snake in some earlier entry. Step parents suck, at least mine does right now.

Anyho, I will be going to my friend Holly's house this coming Friday! Yay! I get to stay until Tuesday too! Can you tell that I am very excited about seeing her? I am also excited to get out of the house for a period of time. I can't stand being cooped up all the time. I can go for walks, but with no car I am very limited.

I will hopefully be going back to work on a part time basis so I can make some cash of my own. Yay! I have my reservations still, and my fears. I want to say that I am all gung ho for it, but I am just frozen with fear sometimes. Stupid fears, like being around too many people at one time, not being good enough, losing the job, being fired!, did I mention being around too many people I don't know? Yeah, they all sound stupid but agoraphobia is very real, and just compouds the troubles I have just being Bipolar. I don't even know what will happen, but I still run all these negtive events through my head till I want to break down and cry. I actually start to feel like my life is in jepordy. That's when it starts to really effect my life.

Well that's enough fun for today kids! Gotta run.