My Life Without Me

So it's been quite a while since I last made an entry. Not much has changed. Things are still slowly improving, although the stress from a particular person is still there. I think he was reffered to as a snake in some earlier entry. Step parents suck, at least mine does right now.

Anyho, I will be going to my friend Holly's house this coming Friday! Yay! I get to stay until Tuesday too! Can you tell that I am very excited about seeing her? I am also excited to get out of the house for a period of time. I can't stand being cooped up all the time. I can go for walks, but with no car I am very limited.

I will hopefully be going back to work on a part time basis so I can make some cash of my own. Yay! I have my reservations still, and my fears. I want to say that I am all gung ho for it, but I am just frozen with fear sometimes. Stupid fears, like being around too many people at one time, not being good enough, losing the job, being fired!, did I mention being around too many people I don't know? Yeah, they all sound stupid but agoraphobia is very real, and just compouds the troubles I have just being Bipolar. I don't even know what will happen, but I still run all these negtive events through my head till I want to break down and cry. I actually start to feel like my life is in jepordy. That's when it starts to really effect my life.

Well that's enough fun for today kids! Gotta run.

Up nicw and early and I'm giving orange juice a chance to prove it's self in my morning rutine. We'll see how long it lasts. I give it till right after I am done doing my blog before I substitute for coffee.

I have been a manicy this past weekend. I have gotten a couple old projects done that I have been wanting to get done for a while. I also started to work on a project that I want to do in order to get me back into my knitting so I can finish these scarves before christmas.

Having a hard time waking up this morning, but a cup of coffee should do the trick. Okay the mind just doesn't want to work today.

Somehow getting 10 hours of sleep is a bad thing.

Well, each day is getting easier, thank goodness! I may start to kick it up a bit now that I am heading into week 2. I have added weights to my arm exersises and leg lifts to my stomach exersises. I still can't do any real walking because of my right foot, damn it. I still need to get new sneakers, better sneakers. I still haven't started to lose any signifigant weight, although I think that has something to do with my period coming soon. (As if you all wanted to know that) That can be a factor considering you hold onto water weight during that time, so don't get down on yourself if you see a weight gain, or no loss at all. That is about all I have to share at this time. Just stay away from left over Halloween candy!! Give it all to the neighbors kid, take it into work and let them get fat. Now, that's it.

My visit with my friend Holly went well. We had an awesome time goofing off and playing games. It always takes me a couple days to et back on a normal sleep schedule after I visit her though. Mainly because there isn't a lot of sleeping going on. Even now I am yawning and it's 9am.

Well I am very busy and I have a couple more scarves to finish before christmas. He he, I love it when I do this to myself, not! First it was just for a couple people, now I have added like 5 more people. Very busy.